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FEB 05, 2024: AI nonsense witch trial //

I'm so going to be burnt at the stake here. So I'm in my third year of college, I have this class where this professor who specializes in using a game engine, prompted an AI to generate a 3D model of a coin. We were all shocked, to say the least. He used an AI to make something we ourselves do.

My initial shock went by, as did everyone else's. But no one stopped to call him out on it or said something or offered to make the asset themselves. Which I found strange but normal at the same time. Everyone was offended at what he had done but none stopped to offer to do the job.

It was a fucked up thing to do, given the fact that we, as animators, are struggling to enter the workforce because of things like these. It was just one class, he's an old man who thinks AI is the best thing in the world, and while fucked up, it unfortunately got the job done.

I'm not a diplomatic person. And often I struggle to put my thoughts into words because, frankly, I didn't do much of that growing up. So when everyone in a group chat started to suggest we complain (about things related to the class and not the teacher) to the administrative section of my college, I took it as everyone wanting to bash the professor (which i was not in favor of).

So I tried to say why I understood why he did what he did, but It ended up like I justified his actions. And now i feel justified to just write about it and give an explanation to anyone who reads this because I just feel guilty, and everyone now thinks I love that AI is taking or jobs. And I feel really anxious.

Because truly, I believe that complaints of the sort are not necessary. No one complained to him directly, so how is he supposed to know what he's doing is bad? He's only ever going to find out after the complaint is issued and he becomes sanctioned in someway. If anyone had spoken out (It's an online class and I was probably cooking when that happened) It maybe could have been resolved.

Do people these days simply just choose to not do something about a problem and just let it escalate so they have something to complain about later? That's strange.

btw, this is not meant to be read. I'm just trying to type my thoughts out, It helps me feel less anxious. Thanks for reading.

FEB, O2, 2024: Blank Canvas //

So I've managed to convince myself that just because I've completed a (really basic) HTML course on Codecademy I am now ready to start building my own website (not even CSS). I've never really programmed for fun before, but I think this would look good for my CV and help me realize I can still learn things on my own without needing to be told what to do (yay autonomy).

So, for the last 30 minutes I've been trying to see what I could do to start making my website. I find it hard to fill up my own instagram page or tumblr (back in the day). So having an entire blank canvas is really scary to me. I browsed for some templates I could use as inspiration but nothing really grabbed my attention.

I wanted to automate the dates and figure out what IDs to use for the headers and dates of these entries to be able to make a separate popup menu appear, with a sidebar and everything (yay sidebars) but It was really complicated and I have to know php or javascript and frankly, It's 2AM, I don't have time for that (yet) nor I am ready to learn.

But I knew that if I just kept on looking for things to implement or want to do, I wouldn't get anything done. I think it's better to just start in this case. Just to not have something entirely blank, you know what I'm saying? To not have a blank canvas (haha so funny).

PD: WHATTT I CAN ADD TAGS??? I'M SO SAVING MY RECIPES! OH MY GODDD.